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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

A Different Christmas Poem

The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. My wife was asleep, her head on my chest,
My daughter beside me, angelic in rest.
Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white,
Transforming the yard to a winter delight.
The sparkling lights in the tree I believe,
Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve.

My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep,
Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep.
In perfect contentment, or so it would seem,
So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream.
The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near,
But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear.
Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know,
Then the sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow.

My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear,
And I crept to the door just to see who was near.
Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night,
A lone figure stood, his face weary and tight.
A soldier, I puzzled, some twenty years old,
Perhaps a Marine, huddled here in the cold.
Alone in the dark, he looked up and smiled,
Standing watch over me, and my wife and my child.

"What are you doing?" I asked without fear,
"Come in this moment, it's freezing out there!
Put down your pack, brush the snow from your sleeve,
You should be at home on a cold Christmas Eve!"
For barely a moment I saw his eyes shift,
Away from the cold and the snow blown in drifts.
To the window that danced with a warm fire's light
Then he sighed and he said "Its really all right,
I'm out here by choice. I'm here every night."
"It's my duty to stand at the front of the line,
That separates you from the darkest of times.

No one had to ask or beg or implore me,
I'm proud to stand here like my fathers before me.
My Gramps died at 'Pearl on a day in December,
"Then he sighed, "That's a Christmas 'Gram always remembers.
"My dad stood his watch in the jungles of 'Nam',
And now it is my turn and so, here I am.

I've not seen my own son in more than a while,
But my wife sends me pictures, he's sure got her smile.
Then he bent and he carefully pulled from his bag,
The red, white, and blue... an American flag.

"I can live through the cold and the being alone,
Away from my family, my house and my home.
I can stand at my post through the rain and the sleet,
I can sleep in a foxhole with little to eat.
I can carry the weight of killing another,
Or lay down my life with my sister and brother.
Who stand at the front against any and all,
To ensure for all time that this flag will not fall."

"So go back inside," he said, "harbor no fright,
Your family is waiting and I'll be all right."
"But isn't there something I can do, at the least,
"Give you money," I asked, "or prepare you a feast?
It seems all too little for all that you've done,
For being away from your wife and your son."

Then his eye welled a tear that held no regret,
"Just tell us you love us, and never forget.
To fight for our rights back at home while we're gone,
To stand your own watch, no matter how long.
For when we come home, either standing or dead,
To know you remember we fought and we bled.
Is payment enough, and with that we will trust,
That we mattered to you as you mattered to us."

1 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dearest Lori...
I know you haven't heard from me and I want to explain why. My earthlink account does not allow my to send out any e-mails. Something with the internet connection and since I go back and forth from the farm to Kirven's, my connection settings are all screwed up and I am "internet challenged" to say the least. I have read your encouraging and sweet e-cards that lifted me to a higher place and I send you lots of love for them and the personal e-mails you have sent me. I have responded but they won't go out.

My eyes have taken a turn for the worst. I am trying to absorb this reality but I didn't digest it until this week. I feel a loss and a grief that is deep and wide. It takes me forever to write in my blog or to put the pictures up that you see now. Martha does 80% of the work for me and calls me everyday and walks this whole thing through me. She is a spiritual person who has a generosity that few really use. There are a few women who know how "challenged" I am. Of course I am very discouraged. Like you, I want my mother to come back and take care of me. Mother loss is the worst. I embrace you huge because we have suffered with this. Martha too, suffers tremendously with the lost of her mother as well as other women. I seem to gravitate to these women who have lost their mothers and try to live each day without the strongest tie that bounds a woman and that is her mother.

I read this about your girlfriends and I feel sad and mad for you. I too, have many stories about women whom I have trusted with my whole being. Someone asked me once if I was a man hater because of my physical and emotional abuse. I had to think for a minute. I said that I have been more emotionally hurt from women and so I would just say that it is human beings but there are few women I really trust. I trust you. That is my choice. It just feels right.

I looked at your latest pictures and created a yahoo account just to view them and I must say they are absolutely gorgeous. You got it going on, darling girl. Thank you for sharing them with me. I am blessed to have seen them with the eyesight that I have left. I had to put my face up very close and it was so worth it.

You asked me about cameras and I am frustrated you can't get my responses. Could you start writing me at julieann.nordstrom@gmail.com? I use that exclusively now even though there are things I like about earth link. I am trying to make my life a little easier. If you could forward some of the e-mails that you have already sent me, I could respond to them.

I love this space and the way it shows. I don't understand how to do this. It is very easy on my eyes with the black background. Is it hard to do? You have a beautiful blog and you write beautifully and I like the poems and quotes you have. I am very impressed.

Please know that I have seen and felt all the love you send to me. I am so grateful for you and those women have a huge loss without your friendship. My gain.

I know the holidays are so hard without your Mom. She is very very proud of her daughter, with the beautiful heart that you have. Hope you are doing well and hopefully you will get this and write me soon. Sometimes I can't write back because my eyes are too strained and I know you understand.

I love you!

always...Julieann...always